landmines

This morning I was greeted by these words: “Penelope, I want to spend the rest of my life with you. I want to commit to you, and of course the kids are great too. “ Those words made my heart swell…to say the least. The rest of it…well I had some issues with the rest [...]

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black tuesday

This is most definitely the most stressful month of the year for me. Oh wait, we are still a few days away. I’m already freaking out. Every year I vow to only buy for the kids, and that includes nieces and one nephew. Yet I end up totally extending myself, buying for my parents, and [...]

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Nightmare

Two weeks! Two weeks! The semester is nearly over. The downside of that is that I have been a slightly less than diligent student. Which in turn means many more 14 hour marathon study days. Oh well. The paper I poured over from 10pm-12:45am was not even edited this morning. Too many students were not [...]

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little love letter

I have been studying for literally five hours. It’s time for a short break, and some delicious coffee. I want to share something with you. This was in my mail this morning. who are you — with those blue eyes? keeping yourself secretly hidden behind that blue in your eyes. but i know this: you [...]

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Simmer

I had somehow forgotten how alarmingly beautiful he is. The new photograph had me fixed on the screen of my laptop. The pale blue intensity of his eyes were boring right through me. A deep crimson flush crept up to my cheeks from my secret places, and a painful lump formed where an Adams apple [...]

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November 1997

Birthday sleepover to celebrate the boy’s 10th birthday commenced last evening in our small south side flat. Let me break it down for any of you contemplating an event such as this. Seven boys ranging in ages 10-13. Here is what they consumed from 6pm-1am: 4 cheese pizzas, 17 12oz. Sprite sodas, two very large [...]

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Too Nice

The fire has been lit. I felt the warmth of it’s flame all day. Jake and I reconnected last night. There is still much that needs to be sorted out, but it seems very possible that we can make it work. If it’s what I choose, it will mean a move. Part of the progression, [...]

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I’m a Libra

Monday through Friday I have my morning routine, it rarely varies. Only when the kids miss the bus does it vary, as I have to take them to school. The morning routine is simple, and I take great comfort in it’s simplicity. Wake up, make the kids breakfast, start the coffee, send the kids out [...]

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new

Buds firmly implanted in ears blaring my current audio crushes I post. Still crushing on Film School…… Anyway. Dear man (old flame) came over this evening to sound off. This afternoon I thought of all the insight I could impart him with.  It’s a lot. There is so much to tell, and I’m not sure [...]

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Damaged

A day like today was inevitable. A day to crash and burn, if you will. To sleep. To think. To let myself succumb to the virus. I’m sick. After last weeks unfortunate events, it seems quite natural. I totaled my car on Thursday afternoon. No one was hurt, and the squids were at school (thank [...]

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